Sometimes I want to scream at you. Sometimes I wanna text you and tell you that I can't do this anymore. That I can't keep feeling like I don't fucking matter.
I want to tell you I give up. That I'm tired of feeling like I'm the last priority.
I get jealous when girls throw themselves at you. Especially knowing they could mean something, or mean anything. It's worse when I feel like I'm so goddamn insignificant.

Sometimes I just want to yell at you that this is all my fault. That I was stupid enough to fucking fall in love with you. Sometimes I want to call you a player. Sometimes I want to defend you against being called one.

I have no idea what I'm doing. I know what I want and it's so goddamn frustrating to not know how to achieve that. I just. I'm tired of feeling like I can't fucking breathe and like I'm the only one getting hurt.