So more or less I'm sitting here bawling, and while it seems like it's most likely over a broken xbox it's really over everything piling up and my having no clue what the hell to do with any of it. And being told to just go get it fixed is really more frustrating than not hearing anything because there is no money to do so.

There is no money to get it fixed, there is no money to buy a new one, there is no money to replace the brakes in my car that I've been waiting since November while the car sits in the driveway. There's no money to replace my computer that is going to die in a couple months as per the computer shop. Essentially there is no money for anything. And I still cannot get hired. I have a few bucks saved up for gas for things.

And you know, bill collectors calling and wanting money for things. That's fun too.

I don't go anywhere, I don't do anything, I don't spend any money. I don't go out with friends because the only friends I made moved away after school, and the complicated situation won't speak let alone chill and hang out. So. I am frustrated, I am defeated. I am tired of feeling like I'm pushing a boulder up hill and it's running my ass over every time I get 3 feet up.

Not to mention trying to get a job with severe social anxiety is like sticking your hand in a blender