Five motnhs ago I was in this same situation, I was that other woman while someone in a shitty relationship decided that they wanted me. But was it really me? Was it really me they wanted and not just the feeling of forgetting they're in a shitty relationship? I mean I am an awesome girlfriend. You don't have to question if I'm up to no good, or who I'm with. You don't have to try and track me down or worry that you'll hit voicemail because I'm up to no good and with someone or doing something you don't want me to.
Late nights, talking, texting, it's all the same game for me. It's always the same, but then no one realizes in the end they're going to walk away. It's not the first time, I doubt it'll end up the last. I'm somehow doomed the other woman sometimes it seems.

So what's wrong with me taking a different path this time? I'm saying no, I won't wait around while you decide to get your things in order, or do what you don't want to do. I don't care if someone is unstable, why must they always be unstable? I don't care if you don't have the heart to do that to someone. I do.
I have the heart to break someone's and to not worry that they'll do something foolish. I've come to terms with it not being my fault if they do.

No one realizes the simplest things and how much they mean. Someone who knows what's wrong from a change in my voice, or if my pace changes when walking. Someone who's stayed up with me all night, and has seen me turn into a wreck at the drop of a hat.
Those things mean something, I don't know why. But they do.
I don't know how many people are willing to stick around to learn that, but damn it gets exhausting trying to see how many people try.

I want to try something I haven't tried and gone for something that I haven't gone for. I want to see if I fail, if I do that's unfortunate, if I don't great! See where it goes.

I miss arguments. The heated kind where you're all sorts of angry and you want to rip their throats out, but at the end you both crumble and apologize and fix things. I miss all sorts of things. Maybe I should make a list for all that I miss haha.