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Life Of A Part-Time Mermaid

"when you threw me to the wolves that night,
did you think they’d find me easy to swallow?
you’ve loved me more than the others; you know i claw and scream on the way down.

of course i bit back. i learned to love the moon.
i wore wolf skins as easily as my own.
i growled at death and watched him run.

please know that if you feel the hair rise on the back
of your neck, sense a shadow in the bathroom
mirror, find eyes in the thick of night, i am here.

i do not hunger after you.
i imagine you’ll taste exactly as i remember: sour, chalky, gritty. dirt under my nails.
i will be bored of this form soon.

i suggest next time, you try feeding me to dragons. — A STUDY IN SURVIVAL | m.c."

Me
I've been broken, I've loved and I've been hurt. A best friend, a hard worker, a loyal lover. I am simply human.

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A Happy Post!
Sunday, January 15, 2012 @ 12:23 PM
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This is my first non Debbie Downer post in a while, but I had an adventure this weekend. So this shall be the retelling of my epic first time getting to have REAL fun with a friend while living here that didn't involve fake smiling while thinking "Oh my god I'm bored" or sitting at some party wanting to go sleep in my car.

I also decided that idc about adding names to this anymore so, names ahoy.


Earlier in the week I was deciding to go see some friends in Jersey, Delaware and around that general area. After one being sketchy and saying no later after (I don't dig sketchy) and thinking about just how much I'm not thrilled with a particular person's attitude toward me and lack of giving a damn I remembered my very first friend from when I went to ATC (a place I've said I miss very much numerous times) moved here and wasn't traveling for once. Joe and I aren't super close or biffles or any thing like that, he's wasn't like a big brother to me at ATC, but he was always amazingly nice to me. Even as a senior seeing me first come in to ATC at all of just turning 16 and sitting at a counselor's table across from him for getting schedules fixed or answering a question to the academic advisor...idr what I was in for but I know I didn't do it.

But I figured I'd see what he said about hanging out. I figured we'd watch tv (which happens every effing time I go to someone's house anymore), Game (also happens), and eat (Oh my god I see a pattern), but instead he asked if I wanted to see Philly. Now since a very bad ex of mine lives there I'm always hesitant to be in that general area or anywhere around it. I don't know which part of the city he is in now so apprehensive I said yes. We set it for Saturday, which I knew would disrupt my normal coffee house thing but I felt I owed myself a night of fun since I don't really go anywhere or do new things without friends and the opportunity was presenting itself.

The night before I'd had a wicked migraine, I've actually had one for months because my new glasses hadn't been able to be ordered and they're just suppose to come in this week. I didn't know if I'd make it down there, but around 4am it just went away and I fell right asleep (which is unusual lately) and I got up at 8am nervous about going. I forced myself up, no sleep always makes me want to roll back over and go back (i.e like this morning instead of working) I drove down, with my windshield wiper fluid not working and having to spit on the windshield and clear it off every little while and the GPS was constantly telling me to get off somewhere I didn't want to so here I am driving down the road yelling at this box going "That was a bitch move GPS!" and trying to figure out where I'm going (I later figured out somehow "Avoid Highways" had been turned on).

So, after 3 and a half hours of driving on a two hour drive I get there! I get out, follow Joe inside and meet his roommate Gage and Loki the puppy (my personal favorite there) she/he was soooo cuteeee. I'll assume it was a he, and he followed me around the house licking my hand trying to get all up on my lap and whatnot. After figuring out things (apparently they did no planning) we went to the train station and saw that it was closed on Saturdays! WHO CLOSES THE TRAIN ON SATURDAYS?! But anyway. Joe just decided he'd drive into the city since I am very adamant about not driving in the city, esp until I get my good glasses.

The city was amazing, even just driving in. I haven't really been in a big city before and was nervous as to what could happen but no one was bothered me. There was so much effing walking though, oh dear god. Gage doesn't seem to believe in elevators or anything so we took every set of stairs and the long way around everything x.x I'm fat, stairs are not kind to me. Not that I didn't need the exercise. The wind was frigid but it was well worth it, I honestly enjoyed the museum even if it didn't seem like I did because I didn't touch much.

And one of the nicest things was having a friend to go with who was genuinely just being nice and didn't expect anything from being nice. A friend's house I go to frequently's family doesn't even know my name, after 4 years and they live with their family! One of my friend's family doesn't even know I exist because I'm rushed past them and I'm not suppose to say hi. None of my friends here ask if I want a drink or I'm hungry but it was a completely different experience this time. As soon as I got in the door I was offered any drinks in the house, there wasn't much food because they eat out I'll assume but we went and got food and was asked where I wanted to go. It was just amazingly nice, even just having someone who made sure I was behind them when walking or opened the door. It's incredibly unusual from what I was use to and it was great.

This took me two days to write and I have no idea why

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